Freefalling

Be still and know that I am God- Ps 46:10

Be still? Seriously? That's never ever been an easy thing for me to do! I'm a mover! I am on the go and I love a plan. I like to know where I am going and when I am going to get there. I like to be busy about productivity in the mean time. A day off ? Rest ? I have to work at it! 

Many have said to me , " I wish I had your energy". However, what they really don't understand is that "my energy" is not always a good thing- spiritually that is! Because I tend to be a mover, a doer, a planner, I have a built in tendency to be a control freak too! Those types of personalities like to have planners, to do lists, personal deadlines .To have a plan makes me feel secure!  Often times, to  have a plan means to take charge and be in control!  You know the old saying, "If you want something done right, do it yourself". (At least I think that's a real saying). Somehow that got on auto play in my head! 

What should be one of the most simple commands in Scripture is a head scratcher for me. " Be still and know that I am God" . The New American Standard version renders Psalm 46:10 like this, " Cease striving and know that I am God". The word in Hebrew for " be still or cease striving " carries the idea of " take your hands off, let it drop, let go"   We can't really see God at work in our own lives when we are so busy striving, clinging to our own ambitions, our own goals or our own worries. 

This week the Lord really spoke to my heart. The word "freefall" came to mind. When I totally let go of it all, trying to figure it all out, I am in a state of freefall. It is only then when I have let go of every single concern, fear, ambition that I can sense the presence of the Lord holding onto me. When I let go of my need to be in charge I then sense how vast His control in my life really is. I feel the hand of God holding onto me because I'm not busy squirming around like a toddler wanting to break free of mama's hand! 

In this freefall state there are other things falling too. Chains fall off! The strongholds that Satan loves to use to hold us down, hold us back, fall off. Fear, Worry, overthinking, the need to analyze, and execute a plan... just fall off!  And what we are left with is freedom. I guess that's why its called "free fall"!

 At first it feels scary but once the initial "let go" is done, the sheer exhilaration of freefalling ,with God holding onto you, is amazing! Don't take my word for it, take His! If I can, so can you!